Dear Dan,
Even though i am your wife, i still have to say i don't understand you very well. Well, i understand the most important parts of you. Just not some of the newest recurring things that have been eating at my mind these past few months.
Maybe i am holding on to old times and should let go. What happened to the old Dan, the one who was sweet, romantic, and no matter what was able to make me smile. Wasn't the one who causes me to cry 90% of the time but was the one who dried my tears?
I do really miss the times when we wrote secret love letters to each other everyday, and the swooning before sexual encounters. We seem like a old couple, or best friends. But i cant say i could ever consider you as just a friend, i love you deeply. More than i could ever love anyone else.
Yes. I do want to spend my life with you.
But in order for me to do that.. i need you to understand, i am still a child and have not seen the world fully. I cannot be old at this age and be to bed by 10pm every night, take naps after work, not show affection, not be clingy/cuddly, or not want you to be around me when i go out with friends.
What i am saying is.. i have raised our marriage expectations to be much higher than they are reaching right now. We act like we have been together 50 years, or a couple that stays together because they know its the safest route we could take. I want the spark back, the imagination, the spontaneity, even more.. the passion.
Are you willing to help me do this?
Your Loving Wife,
Kayleen Matlick
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