Day 23 - Letter to the last person i kissed

Hello again Dan,

It has been a very long time since i have ever kissed anyone else other than you. Actually to be exact 1,434 Days or 204 weeks and 6 Days.

As far as i know, that is a long time for me to only be kissing one person. :)

Love, love, love, love,

Kayleen

Day 22 - Someone I wanted to give a second chance to

I have given many second chances in my life, may it be friends, family, lovers, or strangers i have never had a good occurrence with these so called second chances. Sure i may have some friends that have done me wrong, but for some reason we are still friends. But i dont think there is any boyfriend i would want to give another second chance, as far as i know they have had their second chances.

Truly, i cannot give second chances to any other ex as far as i know. That is what happens when you get married :p


No hard feelings,

Kayleen

Day 21 - Someone i judge by first impression

There are far to many people for me to write just one letter. But i am not willing to write letters to all these people, maybe just one will suffice.

Dear Someone i judged,

Some of us are very good friends now, and i am sure you judged me before hand also. But i have never treated any horribly by first impression. I make friends easily, i let everyone have second chances, sometimes that's my weakness.

- Kayleen

Day 20 - Letter to the one who broke my heart the hardest

I have had many "puppy loves" as some would say. Back then i probably would of said my heart was "broken" but it has repaired since then. I have had only two relatively serious relationships in my life. I am married to one, and the other one is my best friend now and it couldn't be better.

I am more than certain that anyone could break my heart, not just a "boyfriend" i am very aware of that. But for right now.. i think my heart is a whole. Hoping to keep it that way.

-Kayleen

Day 19 - Someone who pesters my mind

Dear Dan,

Even though i am your wife, i still have to say i don't understand you very well. Well, i understand the most important parts of you. Just not some of the newest recurring things that have been eating at my mind these past few months.

Maybe i am holding on to old times and should let go. What happened to the old Dan, the one who was sweet, romantic, and no matter what was able to make me smile. Wasn't the one who causes me to cry 90% of the time but was the one who dried my tears?

I do really miss the times when we wrote secret love letters to each other everyday, and the swooning before sexual encounters. We seem like a old couple, or best friends. But i cant say i could ever consider you as just a friend, i love you deeply. More than i could ever love anyone else.

Yes. I do want to spend my life with you.

But in order for me to do that.. i need you to understand, i am still a child and have not seen the world fully. I cannot be old at this age and be to bed by 10pm every night, take naps after work, not show affection, not be clingy/cuddly, or not want you to be around me when i go out with friends.

What i am saying is.. i have raised our marriage expectations to be much higher than they are reaching right now. We act like we have been together 50 years, or a couple that stays together because they know its the safest route we could take. I want the spark back, the imagination, the spontaneity, even more.. the passion.

Are you willing to help me do this?

Your Loving Wife,

Kayleen Matlick

Day 18 - Letter to the person i wish i could be

Dear Kayleen (after succeeding at life),

I cant wait to become you, hopefully i will soon. Hopefully we will get the chance to meet someday.

Yours Truly,

Kay

Day 17 - Letter to someone from my childhood

Dear Self 10 years ago,

I was so naive then. I am still naive.

Kayleen

Day 16 - Letter to someone not in my state or country

Hey there,

I don't really want to state your name in this letter. Probably because i am a coward, or possibly because you wouldnt understand this letter.

I got married today, July 21st.
Thanks for having faith in me and guiding me through my tough times. I dont know really how to put this.. i dont even know if i should be thanking you. But my body tells me i should.

I dont know what else i could say in this letter other than I love you and thanks. I wish i could hug you and see you in person.

I wish we were still close.

Love,

Kayleen

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Dear person i miss the most,

I have no idea who i should address this to. I don't think there is someone i could say i really miss. The people that i would ever even consider missing are still in my life. For now i will leave this one blank, and perhaps someone will come to mind.

Day 14 - Letter to someone you've drifted away from

Dear Someone i drifted away from,

I don't know what really happened with us. I suppose i grew up to fast and took things a bit more seriously than you. I don't think we have to much in common anymore, which might be another reason we drifted apart. We used to be great friends, tons of old memories.

Sometimes when i see you i think its unfair that you look so perfect, but have no life. And i look so average and have a life. I like how that happens, neither of us win. I don't know why i still keep you around.. its like i know we have nothing to talk about.. and that you don't even like me too much. I think you only still "kinda" talk to me because there is no one else for you to talk to.

I don't know what to say really, i don't want my opinions to come off as rude, or impolite. Unsure if you even know who you are. I don't even think we know who each other are anymore. We did hang out just recently.. i don't think i enjoyed it much. You have changed, and i don't think for the better. But maybe I've changed.. and your type is no longer the type i like to be around. /shrug

Just a friend,
Kayleen

Day 13 - Letter to someone I wish could forgive me

Dear Someone,

I don't think there is anyone out there who really holds any serious grudges against me. But if there is, can you please let me know. Tell me what i did, maybe we can make it right.

Your friend, possibly?

Kayleen

Day 12 - Letter to someone/something that has caused me a lot of pain

Dear Monthly Menstrual Cycle,

I can name a number of reasons i do not like you.
Those cramps you give me, there is no point to them, i think you just like to watch me wince in pain. You have ruined a few pairs of my favorite pants/undies. Jerk. And make me feel fat.
How come you always come along when i am about to go on a long road trip?

You ruin sexy time, period.

Fuck you,
Kayleen

Day 11 - Letter to a deceased person I wish I could talk to

Dear, Papo

It upsets me that even though you played a big part in my childhood, i can hardly remember you. You were like my father, hell you might as well been my father.

I remember little things about you. Like how every night before bed we got at the end of the bed and prayed, how every time you opened a beer you had me sip the foam from it secretly cause you didn't like it. I still remember my first day of school when i wore the Scottish outfit, and you were disappointed they made me take off the hat to it. I still know from this day the way you looked, the hat and gray jacket. But i don't remember much else after that.

I wish you were here, i wonder how Mamo would be if you never would have died. Wonder if she would still be living on Laurel St. Which by the way, that house is no longer existent. Condemned for druggies taking it over. I almost cried when i saw it on the "anti-meth" slide show in a school assembly one day, made all the good memory's seem irrelevant.

I'm sure if you were here, the previous letter i wrote to on this blog would of not been titled out to who it had been. I have heard of all the good things you did for the family, and how you kept us a whole. I'm sure Randy would of been long gone if you were here, and Rob wouldn't be taking advantage of Mamo the way he is.

Me and Shelby are no longer babies, we still fight and make each other cry, thats for sure. Shelby has a daughter now, her name is Emily. She is beautiful. The father isn't around, but you know how us Daniels are bad at picking out men. But out of all that mess Emily is here. I am getting married in exactly 5 days, no children yet, but there will be. I think i found the one person i could live with for the rest of my life. Too bad you couldn't of met him. I'm scared, Papo. There is no family for me to talk to about what i am about to do. No one to tell me if what i am doing is wrong or right, i am on my own. Sometimes i wish i did have a father figure in my life, someone that acted like they cared who i dated or went with on dates but i don't, i sure you would of.

I don't remember your birthday, or the year you died. But i will never forget that you died on my birthday. And for a long time i think Mamo never wanted to celebrate my birthday due to that. Mamo has changed a lot. I don't know if you would consider it good or bad. I could go on about the family, but i think i will save that for further letters to you.

Thanks for being there as much as you could, if it wasnt for you i might of never been in this family, and been long forgotten by now.

Love always and Forever,

Kbaby

Day 10 - Letter to someone I wish I talked to more

Dear Family,

We have never been very close (at least from what i remember. Apparently we all were bound together before i was 10), and we all get mad and ignore each other over petty dumb things. I wish everyone would get a long and not be so childish.

I would of been cool to have a family get together for my wedding, but the family doesn't care about others and it wont be happening due to sure "stupid-family-drama"

Anyways, the family is not really a family anymore, only like a few of us even talk. Others are dumb and refuse to talk to their own mothers, children, father, aunts, uncles, or cousins. I just don't like the fact that my "almost" husbands family acts more family to me than my real family.

It was even sad when we were unable to have a real 4th of July.


Love,
Kayleen

p.s. If there is any sort of "Kayleen is disrespectful" or anything relevant to that due to this letter. You have all proved me right. Sometimes, opinions are needed.

Day 9 - Letter to someone I wish I could meet

I couldn't of said this better myself.

Dear someone i wish i could meet,

"I've thought long and hard about who to write this letter to. And you know what? That really annoys me. This is not supposed to be hard. But darn it, I hate these "Choose your hero" or "Who inspires you?" things. Come on, I don't know these things. It's not like I go around wondering, "Hmmm. Who do I think has made an impact on my life?" That's just not the sort of thing normal people ponder on a daily basis. So naturally, this letter prompt pissed me off.

Who do I want to write to? Just any person I've never met? Any person, living or dead, anyone who's ever existed? That's just too darn general.

Yes I know, the point of the prompt was to write a letter to your long lost aunt or to the President. But I don't want to. You know who this letter is to? The stinking person who made up this prompt. I've been trying to write this letter for two dang hours. I hate this kind of prompt, I tell you.

You stupid prompt writer, I'll bet you thought you were so smart. Oh, now let's make them declare who they admire. We've made them write to who they like, we've made them write to their siblings, heck, we've even made them write to a stranger. So let's turn up the cheese dial and make them write to someone they wish they could meet.

Well I'm not falling for it. Yeah, you've gotten me to write a letter to someone I've never met, but really, go away. Just leave. You must never again show your face as a letter-prompt writer. I'm going to finish all the letters, but you can bet I'm not going to like them all. Just to spite you. You have just plain pissed me off with this prompt. I'd like to meet you to tell you how stupid it was of you to make me write about this prompt. Good day."


Love,
Kayleen

Day 8 - Letter to my favorite internet friend

I have lost contact with most my old internet friends so im gonna go back to about 6 months ago


Hey there Kani lover,
Hey there buddy, long time no talk. Probably confused as to why you're receiving a letter from me huh? Well anyways the topic was "Favorite internet friend" and you came to mind, odd. About maybe 6 months (maybe less) you were my favorite internet friend, there wasn't a day when i could go on with my day/night without at least talking to you once. We had so much to talk about, you had simple dreams about radio shows and furs, when my life was all complicated and probably really annoying for you.

You talked me out of a ton of really dumb decisions i made, and i thank you for that. I thank you for practically being the savior of my soon-to-be marriage, even though you probably weren't very comfortable about talking about subject with me, considering the circumstances. There was a time when i REALLY wanted to meet you, and i still do. Maybe someday we can start talking or "hanging" out again.

I'm sorry That i just kinda.. depleted, if that's the right word. It was very rude of me to just randomly stop coming online and not saying anything to you, ever. There was a lot going on and i didn't want to burden you with my silly "bunny-ness" hopefully you understand.

Alt 3,

Kinai

Day 7 - Letter to my Ex's

Dear ex's,

I look back on some of you reminisce in the fun times we had, I'm glad things turned out the way they did. I hope the best of luck on your adventures for love.

One of the many to come,

Kayleen

Day 6 - Letter to a Stranger

Hello Stranger,

I know its rather odd to be receiving a letter from someone you don't know, or may never know. Maybe we can possibly get to know each other, who knows?

I'm sure it would be awesome to meet someone new, someone i have never seen before. We can talk about our differences and all the things we have accomplish and witnessed in our short lives. We can even brag about who has the best life if you want, sure you would win.
I would like to know what you look like, maybe even know your name, sex, and location.

I wont be shy if we ever see each other, i do well around new people. Maybe i would even run up and hug you if we talk more often. But i am weird like that and i wouldn't want to scare you away.

If i didn't want you to think i was crazy i would send you a letter of anything and everything that showed up at the top of my head randomly, but then id probably lose a pen pal or whatever i should consider you as.

Later days,

Kayleen

Day 5 - Letter to my Dreams

Dear Dreams,

Without you i would be a boring person, i would not be the person i am now. I think in order for a person to really live they need to have dreams, even if they're small ones like for example keeping a plant alive for 4 months or trying to fit in those size 2 jeans that you find cute. Either way I need you, Dreams.

You are coming at me fast, and sometimes i can handle what is thrown at me but i wish some dreams would come a bit slower. I did not expect to fulfill the dream of living in my own house and being married before the age of 25 but it seems i am accomplishing those dreams early.

You know i talk to you every night before i go to bed telling you all these new ideas i have planned for you, sometimes i don't go through with what i tell you, but i think from now on i will.

Yours Truly
Kayleen

P.S. Maybe we will fulfill that plan on me becoming a famous architect ;)

Day 4 - Letter to my Siblings

Dear Jenna.

You are almost ten, i am starting to feel old, i was only nine when you were born and i can still remember the day i first saw you. You are the only sister i ever really payed attention to enough to know, might of been because we lived together for so long.

Remember, you can always come to me for help.

Love always,
Sissy


Dear Shelby,

I know things don't turn out as planned, i know for certain you didn't plan on having a 3 year old baby at this age, but hell, shit happens. I know over time you and i have grown closer and it could be because we are growing up. But i do wish things would of happened differently in our lives.
We dont fight anymore, which is awesome.We have 100x's more in common than i thought we ever would. I cant wait to see what we are like when we are Vicki and Nana's age.

Lets make a promise to try and stay close forever.

Love,
Kayleen


Dear Miranda,

I cannot stress enough how much i wish things were different. I know you think i hate you because we never hang out or talk, but you should know i don't hate you, and never could. I hope someday you will realize that you and i never grew up together, we never lived under the same roof, shared the same toys, beat each other up, or made each other cry, all the essential things we need growing up to be sisters. But that does not mean i do not count you as a sister because i do. You also have to take into thought that i am 6-7 years older than you and we don't have the same things in common because of the age difference.

Not all sisters get a long like in the movies, we are a normal family, sorry i couldn't be more like Shelby and be your best friend, but i don't think i could ever be any of my sisters best friend because i would act to much like a mother around all of you.

We all make mistakes and we all need to learn from them.


Love you,
Kayleen

Day 3 - Letter to my Parents

Dear Mom,

I know just recently we decided that we need each other. We didn't get a long when i lived with you and fought constantly, but now that i am moved out and all grown up we seem to have grown closer to each other. I want to thank you for trying your hardest and doing all that could to make sure i grew up right. If it wasn't for you i would not be who i am now.

I know you had me at a really young age so i cannot blame you for the first year of my life, and i just want you to know that i don't blame you, or anyone, shit happens. All i know is that you did a pretty damn good job with me, not everyone can say their child moved out early, graduated, went to college, and tried to live her dream and succeed. (Which i am still on the succeeding part)

When i have my first child i can only hope to be as a great as a mom you are. I love you.

Your Daughter,

Kayleen

Day 2 - Letter to my Crush

Dear Crush,

I love the feeling you give me, I love the butterflies and the shyness and all over giddy feeling i get from you. Sadly you have gone away and I wish you will come back. I miss the way you made me feel. Maybe you will someday.

Yours Truly,
Kayleen

Day 1 - Letter to My Best Friend

Dear Friend,

I know you are out there somewhere, I have had a few of you but have not been lucky enough to say i have ever kept one fully. I do have friends that are near and dear to me but none i can consider a best friend. Some that were considered a "best friend" are no longer and are now gone or either really close friends.

But while you were my best friends i must thank you for all the support for all the fun times that were given.

Oh! but i do have someone i consider an awesome friend and quite possibly a best friend.

Hello Chris,

I know you and i have been through very rough times and probably shouldn't even be friends but we are. You are always around when i need you. You stop what you are doing to come help me when no one else will. You listen to me complain and don't judge me out loud, and when you do.. you know i needed it. We sure do fight a lot but who doesn't?
Even though people complain and don't think we are "just" friends.. we know we are and that's all that matters, thanks for being there when others have failed.




Your Friend,
Kayleen

The days

I am going to try MY HARDEST to write everyday. I will more than likely miss a day or two, but i will make up for it, hopefully.

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your best friend
Day 2 — Your crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your ex boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror